Wednesday, February 3, 2010

I think I must have put my skin in the dryer and shrunk it

In my grievances for this week (well...been more than a week really), has been my poor battered skin. I do believe the Erbitux is the cause, but whichever of the various drugs is causing's a bit too much for me to handle.
I have just holed myself up in my room, calling off work eventually, because being out among people is just a pain in my butt. Its not just that my skin isn't pretty. Really...who cares. But add on to it that it feels a couple sizes too small for me, its itchy, and raw, and stinging...all around miserable.
Chicago winters definitely don't help my situation. I can't even open my mouth all the way without stretching down my eyelids so much the bottom lid pulls away from my eyeball. THAT tight. And there's a lovely little patch of super raw rashy skin just under my chin that is so super tender to EVERYthing. It stings just raising my head to look up. So, I'm uncomfortable, to say the least.
I debated taking the photos, seeing as just walking past the bathroom mirror distresses me. But, since I told myself long ago that I want to document whatever I can, the ugly of it all..why not bare my raw chapped face to the world wide webs.
I have nothing more to say about it. I want my skin back. Amazing how seemingly little things could cause so much grief. Gah.

1 comment:

  1. :( No fun. I went through something similar when I was going through chemo. This too shall pass. I work for ChiliTechnology and something that really helped me with my surgery and with the heat I suffered from from the chemo was the ChiliPad. It's a remote-controlled mattress pad that cools the bed down, you can set any temp. down to 46 degrees or up to 118. Relaxing in a warm bed during the winter or a cold bed when you're hot and itchy can be a lifesaver.