rebecca died on march 24th. she fought to the bitter end. it is hard to put a judgement on that statement. would she have lived longer if she had stopped treatment? I think that may be true. but it was not my choice. so as I am cataloging and parcelling out what remains of all the stuff left behind, I am coming across things. writings and pictures and old home movies and facebook. i know she wasn't "done" yet. I am NOT surprised at what an influence she was on people she didn't even know. she took the role of cancerlebrity seriously, even though she found it burdensome at times. she was alone, unmotivated and tired in the last 1 1/2yrs. cancer became a full-time job and energy was finite.
I thought about hacking into this account and posting some of the writings I've found. it seems fitting somehow. her facebook page has been made public and there is a wide-spread outreaching from all over the world. so, if people are still following this, leave a comment of whether or not those words deserve to be heard, or were even meant to be heard. it is pretty raw stuff so far. may b hard to take. maybe not but either way she will be missed.
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sorry, this is rebecca's mother.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for your loss. I didn't know Becca, but I could tell from her blog that she was a special person. I was sad when the entries to her blog stopped appearing and I wondered what happened to her. I would like (I believe) to hear what else Becca had to say. I have been treated twice for cancer and am doing fine. I'm so sorry Becca didn't have as good of an outcome.
ReplyDeleteI've always thought that there are somethings that you want to hear and somethings that you need to hear...
ReplyDeleteThese might be things that need to be heard- even if they're hard.
I agree, even if it's difficult, some things are meant to be heard.
ReplyDeleteI'm fairly new to the CC Forum, so I did not get to read her blog. Would love to read anything she wrote.......who would know better what we go through?
ReplyDeleteI think that Becca's words were always honest and raw - that's what made her unique and special. I, for one, would like to read them. I'm going through my second round of chemo after being in remission for 3.5 years. I imagine that her words would resonate, and would make me (and us) think about out place in this life.
ReplyDeleteI know the last couple years were extremely disheartening - especially after the cyberknife and not being able to have the pelvic removal surgery (which, btw to me, was a huge brave decision she accepted to even have in the 1st place all becuase she wanted to live). I begged her to continue writing. Her words were were raw, honest with integrity...no one in my mind articulated the darkness of cancer better then Becca. I think she was not only tired of the stupid cancer, but tired of seeing those around her continue with life. And, those that had FAP continue to die. Even so, she continued chemo TILL THE END all because she wanted to live. It was a good choice Mary that no one intervened. And, she was one heck of a stubborn girl. Srong as an ox like her momma! I, for one, think she'd feel fine about sharing these thoughts. Without Anne's diary, how would any of us even imagine that horror? Becca and Anne were storytellers.
ReplyDeleteI hope you post them Mary. Everyone needs to know what Becca went through. If you can't post them all at once, one at a time, once a week, or whenever you feel it's necessary, will be fine. But I know that it took its toll on her, especially the past year. I know that she will never be forgotten. No one will let it happen.
ReplyDeleteShe had a beautiful brain and a beautiful soul and it certainly has helped me reading through these posts but it is of course up to you...
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I didn't know Rebecca personally, but she absolutely made a lasting impact on me. I don't remember how I found her blog, but once I did, I couldn't stop reading. She was funny and witty and so so inspiring to me. Once she stopped updating her blog very often, I started checking in less, although I still made sure to check once a month or so. I am so very sorry to hear this news. Although we never knew each other personally, her absence is certainly felt. Thank you so much for the update.
ReplyDeleteTo this day Mary I still come back here and read
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